Thursday, August 4, 2011

I Can See It Now

Lately I've been experiencing a bit of a fog.  You know, forgetting simple words, walking into the store and completely forgetting why I was there, walking out of the store and forgetting where I parked the car.  It would be a bit of a stretch to blame it on "pregnancy brain".  I'm thinking it's the lack of sleep (a major complaint from most people who suffer from AS).

Anyway, the other day my husband and I were talking about something and I said, "I'll see it when I believe it".  He stared at me, waiting for me to catch my own mistake.  A few seconds later I asked, "Oh wait.  How does that saying go?"  

"I'll believe it when I see it" he answered.  

Hmmmm.  I thought about it for a moment and said it (my way) again, "I'll see it when I believe it."  I repeated  it a few times quietly, smiled and then shouted, "That's it!  It's brilliant!  I will see it when I believe it."  I will see myself pain-free, whole, healthy and strong, when I believe it, not the other way around.  

I don't need to see the evidence before believing.  I don't need to be sold, convinced or won over. 

I see myself running around with my girls, kicking a soccer ball, throwing a football, catching a Frisbee. 
I see myself dancing, twirling, smiling, laughing.
I see myself writing - writing something beyond what I could have ever imagined.  
I see myself surrounded by people I love.
I see myself with outstretched arms, thanking God for His grace and mercy.  
I see myself speaking to others - walking them through their own seasons of fear and pain.  
I see myself growing old, standing tall, looking vibrant.  

I see this because I believe this.  
"Now faith is being sure of what we hope for and certain of what we do not see.
- Hebrews 11:1

What do you see?


  1. I can see it too. Thanks for pointing it out.

    Jed's (and Kim's) Friend

  2. Wow! Great message. So much like faith right? I sometimes get a little annoyed when people try to prove God. I like to tell people that the evidence is His work in each individuals life. The "evidence" of God is His work in your life. You believe in Him and you will see His hand in your life. Your faith is obvious in your words.

  3. and also like the book, "the secret". you gotta envision it and good things will happen. :)

  4. Hi Kim,

    I logged into your blog for the first time today, and I was blown away by your words. I read it all from the beginning and I felt like I was right there beside you, laughing and crying through this season. Thank you for sharing what you've been going through - I never could have imagined it otherwise. Your words, your attitude toward everything - they make me feel good when you're the one dealing with all the scary stuff! You are incredible. And keep the recipes and garden pictures coming! I love it! I so have to start a garden - it's been on my to-do list forever, so you've inspired me to get moving. Thank you for reminding me to slow down and enjoy my life, to be present in every moment - whether it's with my boys and Jerel or at work - to appreciate all I have, and to be happy. That's what your words do for me. I'm rooting for you, Jed and the girls, and I know things get hectic, but I'd love to keep in touch! Much love to you and the 'ohana - Tootie.

  5. Tootie!!!

    So great to hear from you. And thank you for your kind words. Welcome to my blog - where I bare my soul to my closest friends (and the rest of cyberspace). Yes, I would love to keep in touch. Email me at my personal email when you have the chance and we'll catch up.

    Much Love,