I Can See It Now

Lately I've been experiencing a bit of a fog.  You know, forgetting simple words, walking into the store and completely forgetting why I was there, walking out of the store and forgetting where I parked the car.  It would be a bit of a stretch to blame it on "pregnancy brain".  I'm thinking it's the lack of sleep (a major complaint from most people who suffer from AS).

Anyway, the other day my husband and I were talking about something and I said, "I'll see it when I believe it".  He stared at me, waiting for me to catch my own mistake.  A few seconds later I asked, "Oh wait.  How does that saying go?"  

"I'll believe it when I see it" he answered.  

Hmmmm.  I thought about it for a moment and said it (my way) again, "I'll see it when I believe it."  I repeated  it a few times quietly, smiled and then shouted, "That's it!  It's brilliant!  I will see it when I believe it."  I will see myself pain-free, whole, healthy and strong, when I believe it, not the other way around.  

I don't need to see the evidence before believing.  I don't need to be sold, convinced or won over. 

I see myself running around with my girls, kicking a soccer ball, throwing a football, catching a Frisbee. 

I see myself dancing, twirling, smiling, laughing.

I see myself writing - writing something beyond what I could have ever imagined.  

I see myself surrounded by people I love.

I see myself with outstretched arms, thanking God for His grace and mercy.  

I see myself speaking to others - walking them through their own seasons of fear and pain.  

I see myself growing old, standing tall, looking vibrant.  

I see this because I believe this.  

  

"Now faith is being sure of what we hope for and certain of what we do not see." 

- Hebrews 11:1

What do you see?
Kim