When I was five months pregnant with my oldest daughter I went to Seattle for a work training. While I was there I got a call from my doctor's office back home saying that the results of my quad screen came back showing my baby had a "high likelihood for down's syndrome". I would have to see a genetic counselor and have more tests done as soon as I got back home. I hung up the phone and cried the most painful cry. I was devastated. Amazingly enough, my husband had flown in that day to visit me before heading off to a conference on the east coast. He was with some friends when I got the call so when I told him he needed to get back to the hotel right away he knew something was wrong.
I sat on my hotel bed, waiting for my husband, holding my belly. I thought about all the what ifs. My heart raced but I felt weak. When he finally arrived I was out of tears and completely drained. I didn't know what he was going to say or what I needed to hear. I did most of the talking. I explained what the doctor said and what steps we needed to take from there. He was quiet. I shared my what ifs and my fears. He listened. When I finally asked him what he was thinking he responded: We have enough love for this.
I was speechless. He couldn't have said more beautiful words. My heart stopped racing, my mind stopped spinning. No matter what was about to happen, we would have enough love for it. Four months later I gave birth to a healthy baby girl.
Here we are, almost four years later, with two beautiful, healthy daughters. We don't take a moment of them for granted. They are my most precious gifts and I am so thankful they have a father that loves and adores them.
This year our family has experienced indescribable joy as well as incredible pain. Through it all, there is one thing that still rings true: We have enough love for this too.
Happy Father's Day to the man who has held my hand through it all.
Love,
Kim
